On Awareness

What is awareness? How do I recognize it. How do I embody it?

How is it that I should describe awareness? Awareness is Anáma-Rúpam. It is without form and thus name. It is without language, culture, gender, motive, or desire. Insofar as we are fully identified with any of these mindful conditioning, we are not embodying that which is Awareness, Self, in part or in totality.

Any object we perceive that prompts subsequent understanding is a mindful concept. Therefore, such understanding and knowing cannot be that which is Awareness; however, such knowing may be a response to Awareness. The greater the degree our knowing is in response to Awareness, the more our mind is subservient to Self.

Conversely, understanding and thus knowing that is prompted by the mind and thus conditioning will only reify and replicate itself as ego. As we can only understand the world and others relative to ourselves, the greater our reliance on the mind to inspire and produce such understanding, the more we shall recreate another representation of ourselves and protract such unto others rendering them as constructs of our mind and our conditioning. In such a way, we mindfully create dominion over others enabling our evaluation and judgment.

How is it that the mind can know itself? Only as a reflection and representation of our understanding of it, also generated by the same mind attempting to understand and analyze it. Our mind cannot escape perceived reality. In perceived reality, we find the environment and others created by ourselves as mindful constructs. To analyze oneself relative to the mind will only create further mindful understanding and thus knowing. Irrespective to the mind and its activities, Awareness has the capacity to draw unto self under our volition; thereby, illuminating self for all of its fallacies and illusion.

Drawing a mindful observation of the mind is of course important for those not relying upon or drawing from Awareness. In greater understanding of ourselves, we can better understand others. However, this understanding will always be limited to our mind and perceived reality insofar as its origin is the mind.

Drawing Awareness to the entire process is to view the mechanisms of self as though you were engaging a story wherein the character is compelled, driven, conditioned, motivated, and attempting to achieve some goal relative to their self embodied. It is from Awareness that we begin to integrate Self over self. Through Awareness, we begin to realize all that is created by the mind can be destroyed, rebuilt, reinforced, changed, and held. We further realize that all that is created by the mind is subjective rather than absolute and is thus arbitrary. For example, speaking on gender, what is a man? What does it mean to be a man? Why? Why must I be a Man? Why am I attached to my definition of Man? What underlies my attachment? What is my intent? What are my reactions? What is conditioning me to react thusly? What underlies such conditioning? What underlies that?

Through Awareness, we begin to distrust the mind and therefore all that it creates. We begin to distrust ourselves, as self, in totality; we distrust our perception, interpretation, understanding, evaluation, and judgment. With this distrust, we naturally hesitate to further integrate new understanding born from the mind into perceived reality. We begin to ask, why. Overtime, answers drawn from Awareness to this question are integrated into self and perceived reality.

Through this process, the mindful representation of self is cyclically deconstructed and reconstructed. Know this, the mind wishes to preserve itself. As such, we are susceptible to deceiving ourselves. How is it that we in any way identified with self as ego at any time? It easier to deceive oneself as an adaptation to experiences such that mind is reified. If I say that I have conquered ego! I am now free! Have I not just created another representation of myself; ego in another form? Understand that insofar as the mind exists, so too does self and perceived reality.

As expression may be necessary, a medium, self, for such expression must exist. Where self exists, it exists within and relative to perceived reality as a representation. In cases wherein we are Awareness, the mind serves Self in totality. Insofar as an expression of Awareness is required rather than desired, we use the mind and thus self as Its medium. As such, self becomes a mindful reflection and servant of Self. Awareness, Self, has no form and thus name. In this way it is not bound nor is it attached. It IS. Inasmuch, self, as a reflection and servant of Self serves as an aspect of Awareness in manifestation within illusion. Anáma-Rúpam. Ω